I forsake the life I had
For there were moments of happiness
But under it all was un-dealt with pain.
Manipulation under his breath
He controlled my decisions
Whilst whispering of his intent.
Blinded by hesitation and routine
Dancing to the pipers tune
My life succumbed to cruelty.
Wires pulled my submissive body
He steered my solo into my grave.
Your lips build graveyards
Full of lies and deception
There is no peace by your side.
Blame it on your weak sorrow
For the dead have come to collect
With their damned souls.
Knowing from the beginning
It’d hurt so deep
Yet I paced onto this dangerous path.
Seems no matter which turn
I’d lose the game
With the guilt and shame.
A vision played in the fire
Promising a mutual understanding.
Yet we threw our dice onto the roulette
We risked our fate.
Now looking eye to eye
We must face what the cards prayed
Before our time even began.
Walk slow without direction
You’ll know when you get there.
Don’t cry, you can feel the light
Learn how to let go
In the middle of the night
Just yell and let your demons roam
Onto to the sand like you have no where to go.
My hell began
Only for it to be my end.
Your words stopped
Yet mine flowed
Only for it to be condoned.
The silence of your words
Began when you no longer found the time
Though it appears
I am put to the side.
I ask for little in return
Since in this life you will not deter.
Instead, don’t make me feel alone.
As of late, the stars in my sky have dimmed..
The will to remain strong has slowly dissipated
There has only been darkness in my heart
Since everyone broke me apart.
So much has been given
And so little has been received.
Exhausted from the pull of others
Torn from every excuse
Withered away into the wind is my trust in all
No one sees the pain I endure
For I lock it all away..
Never will I tell a soul
Because in the end, they will take it all away.
Trapped inside a box
The walls begin to whisper of past words
Even the same chords from long ago
Have begun to wrap themselves around my bones.
Every penny and every dime
That was once mine
Have now dissolved into your own.
Repeated patterns from years ago
Have finally begun to show.
Back into the same drowning waters
I once escaped.
Suffocating within my mind
my chest begins to cave
As the tears fall down my face.
Desperately trying to hold on to the ledge
Of my sanity.
Slipping from reality
As the knot in my throat grows with every second
It’d be easier if I just let it go
The time and date is different
Simple conversations open deep wounds
Once locked away.
I solemnly swear i am the killer of my own happiness.
Why wear so many masks to hide the inevitable
I solemnly swear I know what I must do.
Hurting those would be the death of me
Again, the selfless fool.
Who was I but a tool
Playing a role in your book
Another chapter, another life.
I solemnly swear I am anything but sure.