I’ve shared too much of my heart
I know now there is no going back.
Never will I be the same
Once you’ve broken these chains.
Whispers are telling me you don’t want this anymore
Are my emotions spiraling out of control?
You’re afraid to make it a day
But yet you’ve done it all before.
What’s shifted or is it that I’m not wanted anymore?
I’ve noticed even the poems have stopped
I suppose the spark has fallen apart..
I’ve shared too much to take it back
Although at times I wish I could.
The soul I sought
Is the one whose fate has been set in stone.
The love I caught during the storm
Is the one who will never be my own.
Such a tricky line to steadily tip toe on the tight rope.
All who came and all who left, wavered their chance.
Unlike him, who matches even the tiniest resemblance to my very own soul is out of reach.
With the sunlight in the rear view mirror, to the hands caressing my body and to the whispers we grant each other in a room full of strangers.
Such a tugging fantasy that grips my heart the second your person comes into my view.
This naive damsel who wants nothing but a chance to have you.
A fools game to think
These emotions would vanish
As quickly as the moon did.
Too little time
Too much on the line.
The last one will never be for fate has made it known
With his gavel the words were told.
But the first one had fallen through
When lost words were never said.
One day the second could be freed
But the question will never be answered.
In the end, it was she
who was needed instead.
At the end, i spared myself
To the spear, pointed at my heart.
The time being, your every move will be
The tides changed as we drove
Our way home.
You now know where I stand
Pointed in the direction
My compass aimed.
Come along or wither away
For this night is long overdue
In a way.
My love for you will never go away
But now my loyalty must remain
So if the day ever arrives, I must walk away.
You speak as if your soul
Does not yearn for mine.
You walk as if your path
Does not intertwine with my own.
How would you feel to know
I wish to know you more
To only ever grow.
Her trauma wrote what her future
Poems written out of desperation
For someone to save her.
Atlas, no one heard her cries
In the darkness or at sunrise.
Fearing the wind would whisper
Her secrets to a stranger
Maybe then she would find a savior.
Years grew over her soul
Like a house full of bones.
Her inner sadness trapped inside
To never once show its eyeless mask.
Old enough to understand
What she suffered was more common
Than having a friend.
Long ago, she was i
And I was she.
Now I have come to sense
They all failed me.
As I toil with their expectations
Knowing I’ll never be free
Or be what they want me to be.
The perfect daughter or the perfect wife
I seize to be what they want from me.
Exhausted of trying so hard
To receive but a taste of the cake
I helped create.
What we built has only been based
On the equation of my mistakes.
He plays his games with my heart
To pretend he will change even if it’s
Just for a part.
The words he sarcastically deem
Upon this selfless soul
Who will always, somehow, feel alone.
I refuse to be a piece of my downfall
In the years to come.
As the darkness begins to diminish
I see the hourglass of your figure
At the end of the tunnel.
Your ocean eyes
Full of mystical surprise
Lift me up into a Heaven I’ve never known.
You are a spirit that has seeked me in another life
A beautiful soul full of guilt and strife
For your secrets are mine to keep
Forever shall they lay within my coffin
On the day I die.
You are the definition of what man should be
So lucky she is to have you in her bed
To caress and hold
While I am cold..
your side is empty in my mind
While I live day by day
Filled with love and pride.
What I would give for you to be mine
On a day that may never arrive.
You would let me go
To someone you’d never know
But in my heart, I’d break
Knowing you’d never fight for the Love we have
Simply because you belong in another life..
Though our stories are not combined
We will forever be by each other’s side
Even if it’s in our minds
For our Love is already entangled like a vine.
Who you are is what I deserve
As I am who you wish for.
Nor the ocean nor the moon
Can separate what fate has renewed.
You and I were made to be together
For the circumstances and events
Have aligned for us to be a part of each other’s lives
As it was written before our time.
If I simply murdered my secrets
You’d be taking steps into the gates of hell
Since behind the many masks I wear
Is a darkness that will never tell.
An abyss formed long ago
When his hands and weight captured
My fragile innocence.
After years of bottling the loath
It is time to let it all go.
So young to believe
Her own family would conceive
Such a monster who only knew deceit.
Finally, a part of me has laid to rest
And forgiveness was the final test.