Living in Fear

I’ve shared too much of my heart

I know now there is no going back.

Never will I be the same

Once you’ve broken these chains.

Whispers are telling me you don’t want this anymore

Are my emotions spiraling out of control?

You’re afraid to make it a day

But yet you’ve done it all before.

What’s shifted or is it that I’m not wanted anymore?

I’ve noticed even the poems have stopped

I suppose the spark has fallen apart..

I’ve shared too much to take it back

Although at times I wish I could.

Soul I Sought

The soul I sought

Is the one whose fate has been set in stone.

The love I caught during the storm

Is the one who will never be my own.

Such a tricky line to steadily tip toe on the tight rope.

All who came and all who left, wavered their chance.

Unlike him, who matches even the tiniest resemblance to my very own soul is out of reach.

With the sunlight in the rear view mirror, to the hands caressing my body and to the whispers we grant each other in a room full of strangers.

Such a tugging fantasy that grips my heart the second your person comes into my view.

This naive damsel who wants nothing but a chance to have you.

All Along

A fools game to think

These emotions would vanish

As quickly as the moon did.

Too little time

Too much on the line.

The last one will never be for fate has made it known

With his gavel the words were told.

But the first one had fallen through

When lost words were never said.

One day the second could be freed

But the question will never be answered.

In the end, it was she

who was needed instead.

Point

At the end, i spared myself

To the spear, pointed at my heart.

The time being, your every move will be

Second guessed.

The tides changed as we drove

Our way home.

You now know where I stand

Pointed in the direction

My compass aimed.

Come along or wither away

For this night is long overdue

In a way.

My love for you will never go away

But now my loyalty must remain

Within myself

So if the day ever arrives, I must walk away.

They all Failed

Her trauma wrote what her future

Would present.

Poems written out of desperation

For someone to save her.

Atlas, no one heard her cries

In the darkness or at sunrise.

Fearing the wind would whisper

Her secrets to a stranger

Maybe then she would find a savior.

Years grew over her soul

Like a house full of bones.

Her inner sadness trapped inside

To never once show its eyeless mask.

Old enough to understand

What she suffered was more common

Than having a friend.

Long ago, she was i

And I was she.

Now I have come to sense

They all failed me.

Piece of Cake

As I toil with their expectations

Knowing I’ll never be free

Or be what they want me to be.

The perfect daughter or the perfect wife

I seize to be what they want from me.

Exhausted of trying so hard

To receive but a taste of the cake

I helped create.

What we built has only been based

On the equation of my mistakes.

He plays his games with my heart

To pretend he will change even if it’s

Just for a part.

The words he sarcastically deem

Upon this selfless soul

Who will always, somehow, feel alone.

I refuse to be a piece of my downfall

In the years to come.

Definition

As the darkness begins to diminish

I see the hourglass of your figure

At the end of the tunnel.

Your ocean eyes

Full of mystical surprise

Lift me up into a Heaven I’ve never known.

You are a spirit that has seeked me in another life

A beautiful soul full of guilt and strife

For your secrets are mine to keep

Forever shall they lay within my coffin

On the day I die.

You are the definition of what man should be

So lucky she is to have you in her bed

To caress and hold

While I am cold..

your side is empty in my mind

While I live day by day

Filled with love and pride.

What I would give for you to be mine

On a day that may never arrive.

You would let me go

To someone you’d never know

But in my heart, I’d break

Knowing you’d never fight for the Love we have

Simply because you belong in another life..

Fate Interfered

Though our stories are not combined

We will forever be by each other’s side

Even if it’s in our minds

For our Love is already entangled like a vine.

Who you are is what I deserve

As I am who you wish for.

Nor the ocean nor the moon

Can separate what fate has renewed.

You and I were made to be together

For the circumstances and events

Have aligned for us to be a part of each other’s lives

As it was written before our time.

My Truth will be Heard

If I simply murdered my secrets

You’d be taking steps into the gates of hell

Since behind the many masks I wear

Is a darkness that will never tell.

An abyss formed long ago

When his hands and weight captured

My fragile innocence.

After years of bottling the loath

It is time to let it all go.

So young to believe

Her own family would conceive

Such a monster who only knew deceit.

Finally, a part of me has laid to rest

And forgiveness was the final test.