I raised you up to the highest peak
Picked you up from the lowest depth
Yet none of it mattered.
The cards mentioned an intangible event
Never did I think it’d be our bond
Set up to die.
Your past behavior should’ve been the sign
For it was clear, our friendship
was all but mine.
I’ve shared too much of my heart
I know now there is no going back.
Never will I be the same
Once you’ve broken these chains.
Whispers are telling me you don’t want this anymore
Are my emotions spiraling out of control?
You’re afraid to make it a day
But yet you’ve done it all before.
What’s shifted or is it that I’m not wanted anymore?
I’ve noticed even the poems have stopped
I suppose the spark has fallen apart..
I’ve shared too much to take it back
Although at times I wish I could.
The fire she hearth for herself
Has diminished with simple words.
Her inner ambition
Shot to the ground by change.
Unknowingly, it was a blessing in disguise.
Vulnerability is all she felt in that moment
Of self doubt.
Everyone tells her what she needs but none cared
To truly see that this killed her every hope.
The lions pride must wither away so the journey could present itself in more than one way.
Now she must reflect on what’s to come and the suffering she must endure to make it through a day..
For now, all she can do is cry and self blame
Because only I know that I’m already drained…
These voices whisper in my head
Of a day that may never come.
All these choices will be vain
For I know things will change.
Words can be sung into the wind
But only those with the courage to win
Will truly show you
What you mean to them..
To be resolute is to be unshakeable
If this is true, why are the walls by my feet
Empty handed and alone
My heart is mine to own
Yet you were the thief of such a feat
How can this be
If what we have is suppose to be temporary
There’s no different ending
Let’s not kid ourselves
You and I will never be meant to be
Because we are too afraid to perform such an act
Unless what you say is true
Then darling I’ll wait for you….
Fear gripping my soul
Due to the unknown
I sense a change
I have yet to prepare for
His lips upon mine
Were ever so perfectly united
The very thought of losing you
Shuts my emotions in a box
Forever to be locked
For the day you declare the end is nigh
How can I be forever here
When you’re never near
Our time is precious
Ever so little
Patience wearing thin
But ever so selfless
See me, see you
What should I do
If not be with you
Upon the days to come
I fear for what may seem like an eternity
Knowing things will never be.
Hear the rain
As it drips down my face
I know you’ll listen
With a closed ear
So you won’t get near
Since you are no longer here.
I should be happy
Instead of sad
Because you might be the one
That I could not have.
Is it the thought or the feeling that makes it this way?
Or is it just simply a misconception
My mind steered away…
I walked the forgotten path
I once took hath I not been swayed
By the sweet tune of the hushed voices
I swam in the lost river
Of those who drowned in their failure.
I sought comfort in its warmth
Knowing one day the time will come
Where I will once again
Greet the lost and the lonely
For I’ll always be one.