Locked away in the bathroom
Avoiding everything but the sorrow.
Who knew she could take away the only solitude of trust I had
Who knew her collected tone could pierce my heart
The one I could confide to and never be judged
My truest friend…
Oh how you broke my heart.
After everything I have forgiven you for
You turn your back…
Loneliness was always a friend
But now it seems it is my twin…
Her trauma wrote what her future
Poems written out of desperation
For someone to save her.
Atlas, no one heard her cries
In the darkness or at sunrise.
Fearing the wind would whisper
Her secrets to a stranger
Maybe then she would find a savior.
Years grew over her soul
Like a house full of bones.
Her inner sadness trapped inside
To never once show its eyeless mask.
Old enough to understand
What she suffered was more common
Than having a friend.
Long ago, she was i
And I was she.
Now I have come to sense
They all failed me.
If I simply murdered my secrets
You’d be taking steps into the gates of hell
Since behind the many masks I wear
Is a darkness that will never tell.
An abyss formed long ago
When his hands and weight captured
My fragile innocence.
After years of bottling the loath
It is time to let it all go.
So young to believe
Her own family would conceive
Such a monster who only knew deceit.
Finally, a part of me has laid to rest
And forgiveness was the final test.
As the lies fall from the sky
While looking into his empty eyes.
Fire blazing from his hands
Only beneath his skin
Lies the broken man.
Corruption runs through his veins
As he consumes the river of shame
Because to him this is all a game.
Malicious in every way
Who can blame
Since he was born this way.
A lonely soul with no one to hold
Soon, he will meet his end
By a pure of heart
Whose tears will relinquish the demon hiding
Underneath all the sin.
I shared my story and my life
To only be used in your right.
I have only known pain and discomfort
Yet you brought hell to my doorstep.
Never knowing of what’s to come
Only your deceitfulness In one way more than one .
You’ve spoken your truth
As have I.
Just kill me as the others have done
You’re no different than one hundred and one.
Convinced I was to finally meet happiness
But I was wrong.
Instead, I’ve met my doom in more ways than one..
I wanted to end it all
This suffering and pain
But I have chosen to cry it out
To live another day.
Never expect anyone to meet you halfway
Because In the end there is always no one to help you through the pain.
He guilts trip me for wanting my alone time
Yet if he really knew what was on my mind.
Sick and tired of all the lies
He did this to me.
Made me resent because of how he use to treat me.
Loyal through it all
Damaged by your hands.
I remember the one time you laid them on me
An image I can never forget.
Unintentional because of the withdrawals
How do you expect me to just forget?
Realizing I’m less important
Than i thought I’d be
Keep thinking about what you need
Which is me
Knowing every time we live shorter hours
We lose opportunities
Can it be I am less than
Cruel truths dwindle deep Into my soul
For I am aware of where this road leads
Despair grasping my heart
Because I am not what you need
The score has been settled
And we are in too deep..
For I am aware of where the scars will seep
Another piece left of me
On the ground by your feet
You can continue to wear the mask
To cover up your pain
For you are lonely , this you told me
As I tried to comfort you, knowing I have nothing to gain
But this isolated island of emotions
You helped create…
Another break in the glass
Fragmented by loss
My eyes steer away
So out of touch.
Either it be because of me
Or my thoughts
I cannot say.
I weep as the hours tick by
No one knows the true pain inside.
Another month will go by
And yet the wounds will never heal right.
All I want is to sit in the dark
While my world falls apart.
It had to be done
Or it would’ve never worked.
If it was meant to be
You will see
This had a purpose all along.
Despair and sorrow grasp my neck
As I suffocate under the veil of an selfless act
When will the day arrive where I never once
Have to doubt.
Frustration and self hatred fuel the rage
Of my own mistakes.
The indention of my scars are digging deeper
Reminding me of an age of disappointments
Oh, the never ending broken promises.
Cold and abandonment
Have paved the way of my ever growing book of life.