I’ve shared too much of my heart
I know now there is no going back.
Never will I be the same
Once you’ve broken these chains.
Whispers are telling me you don’t want this anymore
Are my emotions spiraling out of control?
You’re afraid to make it a day
But yet you’ve done it all before.
What’s shifted or is it that I’m not wanted anymore?
I’ve noticed even the poems have stopped
I suppose the spark has fallen apart..
I’ve shared too much to take it back
Although at times I wish I could.
Contemplating if I should even care anymore
Every day, the battle becomes harder
At least for me it is.
I know nothing of your struggles
Which makes it all the true
I was simply just another pursuit.
All I do is doubt everything I know
And everything I’ve been told.
Growing bitter by the day
Believe me, when I say
This is the reason I refrained from letting you in
Because now it has been taken away.
My struggle must reap satisfaction to you
Knowing how someone could truly love
The person you are and will become.
Everyone senses the drastic change
I suppose it’s written on my face.
Though I tried to hide it
I guess I’ll just live with it day by day…
As the minutes and hours go by
Not a single word was spoken
As I sit in silence
Trapped in my spiral mind.
As the traces of scars
Upon my flesh begin to show
Tears escape the pool of my pain.
Cradling my bones
In these chains
Thinking I’ll never be free
Only to see this cage
Being buried In the ground
By my fears.