My hell began
Only for it to be my end.
Your words stopped
Yet mine flowed
Only for it to be condoned.
The silence of your words
Began when you no longer found the time
Though it appears
I am put to the side.
I ask for little in return
Since in this life you will not deter.
Instead, don’t make me feel alone.
The time and date is different
From whence it all began.
Our love has lasted
Through love and pain.
Almost a year of learning who we are
Whilst we are so far apart.
The promises you made were surrendered and accepted
Once the truth came to light.
Your words and actions have shown me enough
To know that the loss of not calling you my own
is all the worth when it is I who you love.
Bared it all, once again
Call me a fool for letting you in
At least you know where I stand.
My heart is yours, as I’ve said it
Again and again.
I look forward to the memories and time
Simple conversations open deep wounds
Once locked away.
I solemnly swear i am the killer of my own happiness.
Why wear so many masks to hide the inevitable
I solemnly swear I know what I must do.
Hurting those would be the death of me
Again, the selfless fool.
Who was I but a tool
Playing a role in your book
Another chapter, another life.
I solemnly swear I am anything but sure.
Though no present, I feel you in my soul
Even in my dreams, you occupy my throne.
How our suffering led us
To the arms of someone
Who cannot be called our own.
Changing the course of our lives
When we were at a crossroads
We rose to the highest peak
Of understanding our truest selves.
Together but separated by time.
Here we are, living two worlds
Just to have a piece of the love
We always sought to have.
In the cold bathtub, I lay in the water
Hoping to find warmth in the pool of tears.
Drinking away my health
As I sit here.
No one to hold me through this phase
Alone with my alcohol to numb the pain.
what the day unfolded when seeking answers for questions unspoken
I was there in your darkest days
Without question, we always were on the same page.
Synced into existence, we slowly became
Sisters from different men.
We shared the same battle
We grew from fires
Reborn into the same moon cycle
I bid you clarification
Fo this day , you’ll soon regain
The deepest refrain of speaking truth
When all could grow from the roots
Of your disdain.
I’ve shared too much of my heart
I know now there is no going back.
Never will I be the same
Once you’ve broken these chains.
Whispers are telling me you don’t want this anymore
Are my emotions spiraling out of control?
You’re afraid to make it a day
But yet you’ve done it all before.
What’s shifted or is it that I’m not wanted anymore?
I’ve noticed even the poems have stopped
I suppose the spark has fallen apart..
I’ve shared too much to take it back
Although at times I wish I could.
A fools game to think
These emotions would vanish
As quickly as the moon did.
Too little time
Too much on the line.
The last one will never be for fate has made it known
With his gavel the words were told.
But the first one had fallen through
When lost words were never said.
One day the second could be freed
But the question will never be answered.
In the end, it was she
who was needed instead.
At the end, i spared myself
To the spear, pointed at my heart.
The time being, your every move will be
The tides changed as we drove
Our way home.
You now know where I stand
Pointed in the direction
My compass aimed.
Come along or wither away
For this night is long overdue
In a way.
My love for you will never go away
But now my loyalty must remain
So if the day ever arrives, I must walk away.
Though our stories are not combined
We will forever be by each other’s side
Even if it’s in our minds
For our Love is already entangled like a vine.
Who you are is what I deserve
As I am who you wish for.
Nor the ocean nor the moon
Can separate what fate has renewed.
You and I were made to be together
For the circumstances and events
Have aligned for us to be a part of each other’s lives
As it was written before our time.
As the lies fall from the sky
While looking into his empty eyes.
Fire blazing from his hands
Only beneath his skin
Lies the broken man.
Corruption runs through his veins
As he consumes the river of shame
Because to him this is all a game.
Malicious in every way
Who can blame
Since he was born this way.
A lonely soul with no one to hold
Soon, he will meet his end
By a pure of heart
Whose tears will relinquish the demon hiding
Underneath all the sin.