Simple conversations open deep wounds
Once locked away.
I solemnly swear i am the killer of my own happiness.
Why wear so many masks to hide the inevitable
I solemnly swear I know what I must do.
Hurting those would be the death of me
Again, the selfless fool.
Who was I but a tool
Playing a role in your book
Another chapter, another life.
I solemnly swear I am anything but sure.
A fools game to think
These emotions would vanish
As quickly as the moon did.
Too little time
Too much on the line.
The last one will never be for fate has made it known
With his gavel the words were told.
But the first one had fallen through
When lost words were never said.
One day the second could be freed
But the question will never be answered.
In the end, it was she
who was needed instead.
He mentions forever
My heart whispers silence
For I no longer see that future.
I sense a change but see nothing
Then again, it’s been a day.
Change takes time
Although, throughout the years
The damage is done.
Unaware of what to do next
I sense confusion
The road will present itself
In many ways
More than one.
In the altar of my roots
Lies a abandoned side of me
Sacrifices were in demand
When all was known was to
Please others instead.
Life has never been carefree
Due to the responsibilities
Born to me.
In the center
Lies the lightless soul
Piece by piece.
I don’t know how others feel because I surround myself with very few people whom I never fully surrender my inner thoughts to.
Instead, I seek to spill my sorrows in words. It’s therapeutical and yet soothing to finally let go what is on my mind.
Let’s start from the beginning.
Once a dreamer, always a thinker & forever an emotional person. I seen things no one at a young age should see..I’ve felt betrayal at its fullest when I gave in and let the pain set in. I’ve screamed at the top of my lungs out of frustration and somehow no matter how much time flies I can’t shake the feeling there are missing pieces in my heart.
As I’ve gotten older, I’ve gotten better at hiding and subsiding my pain. I also know that once a door is opened it’s hard to close it when the very hinges that hold it together could burts into millions of pieces, disabling it from being fixed.
We are too focused to live to pay for the very things we want but do we truly understand that maybe after we get what we want it might not make us happier in the end.
I dreamt of already having a college degree and a house, but life throws you in a path to determine if you’d come out sane and motivated enough to make the best out of it.
I’ve decided I may not have what I would’ve liked to have by this age but it only makes me dream more and be more motivated than ever to accomplish my goals. It’s a new year to forget what we’ve gone through because the past is no longer something to judge but a timeline to reflect upon so further pain and hurt and disappointments can be learned from as a lesson.
Cheers to those who know what I speak!
I accept myself is all you need to say
Despite your flaws and despite the dents
Of those who hurt you.
I am strong
I am coated with impenetrable armour
Because I chose to be this warrior.
I can soak in the pain
And never once let you see this Mountain
Of self reflection I have upon myself.
You do not know me
I know you
I know the fears that lay within the depth
Of your tears.
Those lonely nights
You stay up crying
Because you can’t understand why.
I’ll tell you why
You’re more than this
Fear not because things happen
So you can be the person
You were always meant to be…
Looking into the mirror
I saw her
Then one day I asked, can we talk?
Once we stood face to face
I noticed her grace
Then I knew
She was my darkness
Together we were one
Apart we were none