Looking Back

The time and date is different

From whence it all began.
Our love has lasted
Through love and pain.
Almost a year of learning who we are
Whilst we are so far apart.
The promises you made were surrendered and accepted
Once the truth came to light.
Your words and actions have shown me enough
To know that the loss of not calling you my own
is all the worth when it is I who you love.
Bared it all, once again
Call me a fool for letting you in
At least you know where I stand.
My heart is yours, as I’ve said it
Again and again.
I look forward to the memories and time
We spend.

Solemnly Swear

Simple conversations open deep wounds

Once locked away.

I solemnly swear i am the killer of my own happiness.

Why wear so many masks to hide the inevitable

I solemnly swear I know what I must do.

Hurting those would be the death of me

Again, the selfless fool.

Who was I but a tool

Playing a role in your book

Another chapter, another life.

I solemnly swear I am anything but sure.

The Betrayal

I raised you up to the highest peak

Picked you up from the lowest depth

Yet none of it mattered.

The cards mentioned an intangible event

Never did I think it’d be our bond

Set up to die.

Your past behavior should’ve been the sign

For it was clear, our friendship

was all but mine.

Cross Lovers

Though no present, I feel you in my soul

Even in my dreams, you occupy my throne.

How our suffering led us

To the arms of someone

Who cannot be called our own.

Changing the course of our lives

When we were at a crossroads

We rose to the highest peak

Of understanding our truest selves.

Together but separated by time.

Here we are, living two worlds

Just to have a piece of the love

We always sought to have.

All Along

A fools game to think

These emotions would vanish

As quickly as the moon did.

Too little time

Too much on the line.

The last one will never be for fate has made it known

With his gavel the words were told.

But the first one had fallen through

When lost words were never said.

One day the second could be freed

But the question will never be answered.

In the end, it was she

who was needed instead.

Point

At the end, i spared myself

To the spear, pointed at my heart.

The time being, your every move will be

Second guessed.

The tides changed as we drove

Our way home.

You now know where I stand

Pointed in the direction

My compass aimed.

Come along or wither away

For this night is long overdue

In a way.

My love for you will never go away

But now my loyalty must remain

Within myself

So if the day ever arrives, I must walk away.

They all Failed

Her trauma wrote what her future

Would present.

Poems written out of desperation

For someone to save her.

Atlas, no one heard her cries

In the darkness or at sunrise.

Fearing the wind would whisper

Her secrets to a stranger

Maybe then she would find a savior.

Years grew over her soul

Like a house full of bones.

Her inner sadness trapped inside

To never once show its eyeless mask.

Old enough to understand

What she suffered was more common

Than having a friend.

Long ago, she was i

And I was she.

Now I have come to sense

They all failed me.

Piece of Cake

As I toil with their expectations

Knowing I’ll never be free

Or be what they want me to be.

The perfect daughter or the perfect wife

I seize to be what they want from me.

Exhausted of trying so hard

To receive but a taste of the cake

I helped create.

What we built has only been based

On the equation of my mistakes.

He plays his games with my heart

To pretend he will change even if it’s

Just for a part.

The words he sarcastically deem

Upon this selfless soul

Who will always, somehow, feel alone.

I refuse to be a piece of my downfall

In the years to come.

Definition

As the darkness begins to diminish

I see the hourglass of your figure

At the end of the tunnel.

Your ocean eyes

Full of mystical surprise

Lift me up into a Heaven I’ve never known.

You are a spirit that has seeked me in another life

A beautiful soul full of guilt and strife

For your secrets are mine to keep

Forever shall they lay within my coffin

On the day I die.

You are the definition of what man should be

So lucky she is to have you in her bed

To caress and hold

While I am cold..

your side is empty in my mind

While I live day by day

Filled with love and pride.

What I would give for you to be mine

On a day that may never arrive.

You would let me go

To someone you’d never know

But in my heart, I’d break

Knowing you’d never fight for the Love we have

Simply because you belong in another life..

My Truth will be Heard

If I simply murdered my secrets

You’d be taking steps into the gates of hell

Since behind the many masks I wear

Is a darkness that will never tell.

An abyss formed long ago

When his hands and weight captured

My fragile innocence.

After years of bottling the loath

It is time to let it all go.

So young to believe

Her own family would conceive

Such a monster who only knew deceit.

Finally, a part of me has laid to rest

And forgiveness was the final test.