The time and date is different
Simple conversations open deep wounds
Once locked away.
I solemnly swear i am the killer of my own happiness.
Why wear so many masks to hide the inevitable
I solemnly swear I know what I must do.
Hurting those would be the death of me
Again, the selfless fool.
Who was I but a tool
Playing a role in your book
Another chapter, another life.
I solemnly swear I am anything but sure.
I raised you up to the highest peak
Picked you up from the lowest depth
Yet none of it mattered.
The cards mentioned an intangible event
Never did I think it’d be our bond
Set up to die.
Your past behavior should’ve been the sign
For it was clear, our friendship
was all but mine.
Though no present, I feel you in my soul
Even in my dreams, you occupy my throne.
How our suffering led us
To the arms of someone
Who cannot be called our own.
Changing the course of our lives
When we were at a crossroads
We rose to the highest peak
Of understanding our truest selves.
Together but separated by time.
Here we are, living two worlds
Just to have a piece of the love
We always sought to have.
A fools game to think
These emotions would vanish
As quickly as the moon did.
Too little time
Too much on the line.
The last one will never be for fate has made it known
With his gavel the words were told.
But the first one had fallen through
When lost words were never said.
One day the second could be freed
But the question will never be answered.
In the end, it was she
who was needed instead.
At the end, i spared myself
To the spear, pointed at my heart.
The time being, your every move will be
The tides changed as we drove
Our way home.
You now know where I stand
Pointed in the direction
My compass aimed.
Come along or wither away
For this night is long overdue
In a way.
My love for you will never go away
But now my loyalty must remain
So if the day ever arrives, I must walk away.
Her trauma wrote what her future
Poems written out of desperation
For someone to save her.
Atlas, no one heard her cries
In the darkness or at sunrise.
Fearing the wind would whisper
Her secrets to a stranger
Maybe then she would find a savior.
Years grew over her soul
Like a house full of bones.
Her inner sadness trapped inside
To never once show its eyeless mask.
Old enough to understand
What she suffered was more common
Than having a friend.
Long ago, she was i
And I was she.
Now I have come to sense
They all failed me.
As I toil with their expectations
Knowing I’ll never be free
Or be what they want me to be.
The perfect daughter or the perfect wife
I seize to be what they want from me.
Exhausted of trying so hard
To receive but a taste of the cake
I helped create.
What we built has only been based
On the equation of my mistakes.
He plays his games with my heart
To pretend he will change even if it’s
Just for a part.
The words he sarcastically deem
Upon this selfless soul
Who will always, somehow, feel alone.
I refuse to be a piece of my downfall
In the years to come.
As the darkness begins to diminish
I see the hourglass of your figure
At the end of the tunnel.
Your ocean eyes
Full of mystical surprise
Lift me up into a Heaven I’ve never known.
You are a spirit that has seeked me in another life
A beautiful soul full of guilt and strife
For your secrets are mine to keep
Forever shall they lay within my coffin
On the day I die.
You are the definition of what man should be
So lucky she is to have you in her bed
To caress and hold
While I am cold..
your side is empty in my mind
While I live day by day
Filled with love and pride.
What I would give for you to be mine
On a day that may never arrive.
You would let me go
To someone you’d never know
But in my heart, I’d break
Knowing you’d never fight for the Love we have
Simply because you belong in another life..
If I simply murdered my secrets
You’d be taking steps into the gates of hell
Since behind the many masks I wear
Is a darkness that will never tell.
An abyss formed long ago
When his hands and weight captured
My fragile innocence.
After years of bottling the loath
It is time to let it all go.
So young to believe
Her own family would conceive
Such a monster who only knew deceit.
Finally, a part of me has laid to rest
And forgiveness was the final test.